Aubrey (that's her name) has become completely real to me today so I will bring her to life with my words. She's a bit troubled though she's yet to give me the reasons. She's fallen for a man though I'm not yet convinced they're right for one another. Here, just read this - it's one of the first things she told me...
I am caught by him. Absolutely, unintentionally ensnared. Held by the look in his eyes when he says, come, kneel, open to me. I shiver at his words like touches sliding down my spine. They invoke a fear in me that serves only to feed my need for him, my desire. And though I know – there’s a part of me that truly recognizes – what I desire is wrong, I can no more help my desire than I can resist taking my next breath. It is him. He feeds this desire within me. And I want nothing more than to allow him to lead me, to guide me, to dominate me. I crave his power over me so purely that I only need to follow.
Since I know how crazy I will sound to those who’ve known me my whole life, I tell no one of this man I’ve met, this man I’ve come to need. I remain isolated in my thoughts and will do so until I’ve reconciled just what it is I am entering into.